Girl In The Dirty Shirt

I was looking through my old photos in PhotoBucket. There was those photos of the secondary 2 days. Seriously ah, when i was looking at it right, i felt like crying sia.

During lower sec days, all we did was play play play play play. There wasn't any stress, any emotional shits or whatever lah. But now, havin the Os drawin near, i suddenly have so much weird problems. Scary sia. Cant understand my sciences no matter how hard i try to listen in class. I seriously dont wanna disappoint my parents, my dad especially. Although we dont really speak at all, urg, i just dont wanna see that expression i saw on his face during PSLE again when i take back my results next year. Some may think im just self pityin ah, but screw it ah. Do you fuckin know how much im tryin get all these facts in my head? Kay, whatever lah.

Practical on Thursday, when i was pourin my chemicals and everything, i was freakin shivering lah. The copper(II) was like spilling all over my testube. Practical only like this, skali during all my written work, i scribble bullshit get bonkers or something and draw stick figures as my answers. I dont wanna write wrong numbers again in my math paper, forget stupid formulas durin physics or mix up the questions during chemistry. Im scared okay, super scared.

I still haven't told my parents about my prelims marks yet. I dare not ah. Argh, fuck it. Im gonna cry again.